So Bored.

i went and picked up my band’s cd from my drummer earlier this morning. and it sucks how i didnt even listen to the whole thing. right now im playing billy joel’s "she’s always a woman to me" on loop. i dont know why. but i find it really cool. and something, i dont know.

i also bought the math reference book i need for math 17. test on monday. wonder how i’ll do.

hay, well, im off to my mom’s office. i’ll just go and bring my math notes. it’s better than sleeping oh yeah! i recorded a new disk for my MD player last night! about 3 hours worth of songs.. i think that should last me heheheh.

A Few Random Things

my baguio trip:

so i just got back from baguio, and it was a so-so trip. nothing much really, EXCEPT for this girl i saw at the starbucks in camp john hay! wow~ *.*

• if i had to give a presentation of my physically ideal woman, i’d use her as a visual aid.

• she’s a younger donita rose, with nicer hair, and HOPEFULLY better legs.

• ok, maybe she could use a little more height

• but otherwise, i was.. dammit! why didnt you make a move you..! ><

ok, so a crowded starbucks in the mountains isn’t exactly the best place to make a move, especially when you’re both surrounded by family. but still. and she was looking at me too!

bah. enough.

in other baguio-news, i got myself a new white beaded necklace, which i found out wasnt made of beads, but with shells, justifying the extreme difference in price from the last white beaded necklace i bought. (30 pesos! that would be one dollar like, 10 years ago!) ><

also, it was pretty cold, but if you’ve ever stood out on the balcony in shorts and nothing else on a cold cold canadian winter morning, it’s not really much to write home about. but i am. XD

March Madness

It’s lyrics time!

random stuff i write when i have nothing to post

she’s a mystery
what’s she all about?
id ask old men on the streets
wandering about

chorus:

ive no idea why
she makes me feel so high
but she goes and crashes me down
all the same
and i wanna be her man all the way

i wish she’d give me a chance
clouds over morning tables shine
she’s better than steaks and eggs
but the reason’s pretty shy

i wanna be honest honest
like a moon on a summer tide
there’s no trace of my doubt
it’s a perfect love she hides

chorus

she’s a mystery
when will she open up
i’m living in her lies
i guess that’s close enough

i’m living in her lies
i guess that’s close enough

…

tangina. maybe i really AM in love.

Party Time!

party tonight. maybe. i dont know if im going yet ehe. it’s a block party.. thing is, not my school, not my block. and she’s going. ive only been scared of women twice in my life. she’s number 2. number 1 didnt work out, but we’re buds, i guess. but number 2 scares me. agh.

and i guess thats why i really go for her.

maybe i should go to the party. il ask my parents later. (lol 18 and still asking xD well, that’s why mothers like me xD)

HAY.

i wanna write songs and stuff again. but this time, just for me. not for my "band" or whatever we are.. a lot more freedom, and a lot more fulfilling. il still write for the band tho. i just need something for myself.

god, philo’s hard. i cant understand a single idea. wow, man. argument is right, ima have to pick a fight just listening to the lecture.

i think donita rose got married last night? ow. pangs on my heart aha. well, i wish her well. and i mean it. alright, i wish THEM well. dammit.

PE tomorrow. weight-training. have to toughen up for basketball. no car tomorrow, will be riding the jeeps. of all the days. ah well.

been listening to sting’s seven days on loop. been singing on loop, too.

i need to play ball. either that or.. astrud gilberto’s "so nice." download it if your curious.

My Girl

i finally know what to say when asked "what’s your type of girl?".. she’s rachel leigh cook be proud, rach, take a bow xD physically, anyway. never mind no long legs, i like her the way she is actually, she looks a LOT like the girl i like who stops time for most of the guys i know. ahaha. i have to make a move! 0.0

what brought this on? i just watched she’s all that again. i like the movie because of her Ü
so much for hating chic flicks.

also, my block won the uhm, whatever it was. i dunno if i should be proud or ashamed @.@ proud that we won, or ashamed that we actually studied –; well, THEY won and THEY actually studied. i wanted nothing to do with it xP lol.

I’m a Songwriter!

*ahem*

can i save your life tonight?
why dont you jump into the streets,
be blind oh yeah
i’ll be there
and i wanna hurt for you

maybe you could slip into the pool
could you do that for me?
spells on fate oh yeah
i’ll save you right
i’ll save you so right

it’s nothing selfish
not like that at all,
i’ll be there, girl
there’s nada risk involved
oh yeah, it’s just me,

im just returning the favor.

…

WTF am i writing? 0.o ahaha SOMEONE PUT IT INTO MUSIC xD

Meme Time

1. What song do you want to hear on your deathbed?

uhm, im not sure, bu right now, maybe the "here, there and everywhere," by the beatles.

2. What is your most annoying habit?

being LAZY/SARCASTIC. (at the same time.)

3. Your only son just told you that he is gay. How do you react?

"oh wow. maybe we should go ask your mom what SHE thinks. x.x"

4. What is your wildest fantasy (and boinking celebrities doesn’t count) that you think will likely go unfulfilled?

twins. LOL! xD

5. What were the circumstances of the biggest turning point in your life thus far?

i was just sitting there, and then i suddenly realize what im here for

Random

for the people in the philippines:

yknow who i find cute? the girl in the shampoo commercial. c "trish," was it? who had a bf who kept calling her "pare." *pare sort of means "dude, bro"*

she’s so cuteee hahaha xD

hmn, im lifting a few light weights, as in, 8lbs light. just to tone heheh. and 210 reps of abs exercises. i have too much free time lol.

and my RO thief is now level30! yay! xD

also, we brought out the coffee dripper, so im really high on UCC coffee right now x.x

another week begins, and im so sick of it. i enjoy all the between-class hours, but that’s about it. and it doesnt have anything to do with the school anymore. after what, 2 months? ive grown pretty fond of UP. and admu really does remind me of xavier ahaha xD

ah well. as robert palmer said:

"said the fight to make ends meet
keeps a man up on his feet~"

so work work work! ..out!

Back From the Beach

i needed the break. it felt good. was out in the middle of the ocean (well, not really middle,) and i thought about stuff. i still dont feel like coming in for school tomorrow, or seeing all the same faces, and whatever. but i’ll make do.

i didnt have any pics taken, so sorry ladies lol.

doing free weights. i need the exercise.

Cutie-Watching + Some More

wow. i had to give a LOT of girls second looks *.*

..

on an entirely different note:

i miss this girl from not-so-long-ago. i always feel like i have to protect her because she’s sooooo damn nice and trusting! and when i say nice, i mean like,

"she says every act of kindness is a little bit of love we leave behind" kind of nice. but she doesnt say so. i just get that feeling. no talk about helping others, feeling sorry for others, etc etc. every act of kindness is a little bit of love we leave behind. she just lives it. that’s from a song. and she lives it.

and that gets me. the heart is there. sometimes i have to wonder if she really did feel something, like some people have told me. like now. and then i have to stop, because i know she’s way above me. in heart. i can’t handle hers. me being myself, i’d probably break it. no matter what.

and then i think, "isn’t that what it’s all about? making do with what’s there, and facing difficulties, and overcoming obstacles? you have a great human being there, and she thinks you’re ok. do something, you blockhead." it’s right out of a peanuts comic strip.

no.

it’s not worth it. im not taking any chances with her. she’s all that i believe to be good in life, and im not taking any chances. not for anything.

"she says every act of kindness is a little bit of love we leave behind." that’s from a song.

Paul Williams is EMO!

THAT’S ENOUGH FOR ME

(Lyrics & Music Paul Williams)

If I can make you cry
If I can fill your eyes with pleasure just by holding you
In the early hours of morning
When the day that lies ahead’s not quite begun
Ah well, that’s enough for me
That’s all the hero I need be
I smile to think of you and me
You and I
And how our, pleasure makes you cry

If I can make you smile
If I can move you close to laughter with a word or two
When your day’s been filled with strangers
And the castles that you’ve built all tumbled down
Ah well, that’s enough for me
That’s all the hero I need be
I smile to think of you and me
You and I
And how our pleasure makes you cry

And when the world has got me down
And I’ve almost lost the will to try
I may look sad and I may frown
But I still find comfort in your waiting
Your hello
And your goodbye
And how our pleasure makes you cry

And when I wake to you
And I pretend that I don’t know how you’ve been watching me
All the time that I lay sleeping
By the loving look that lingers in your eye
Ah well, that’s enough for me
That’s all the hero I need be
I smile to think of you and me
You and I
And how our pleasure makes me cry

CD-Burning

ive been looking for old-senti songs, or maybe sad songs or.. well, you get what i mean, to burn a cd! so far, ive got 40 mins worth of:

james ingram, dan hill, ric segreto, etc.

i need at least 25 mins more so i wont feel like the blank cd’s a waste.. sooo.. cmon people, gimme songs XD

RO:

looks cool heheh. les go! >D

Mr. Emo Prayer

isnt it strange how people believe in a god who has time to listen to all their problems and work things out? a god who will let you win the lottery, pass that exam for you, make you the top scorer in tomorrow’s basketball game? it just doesnt happen. not for everyone, anyway.

still, i guess that’s cool. call it blind faith if you will, but SOME of these people actually try to be good guys because they actually believe that we live in a merit system. do we? how the f*ck should i know? what’s important is the "being-a-good-guy" part.

and so, i didnt even get to my rant, because i changed my mind in the 5 minutes i typed this up. so god, if you’re out there, let me pass that exam. let me be the top scorer in tomorrow’s game. seriously.

Random Memory

sometimes, out of the blue, you pick up on a scent that reminds you of something that happened a long time ago. kinda like shampoo or sampaguitas. and you feel so f*cked up because you still dont understand wtf really happened

yes! rainy evenings rule

The Movie Date!

She’s coming, and she’s bringing her two best buddies along. i dont mind, it’s just that i feel uncomfortable with those two around x.x

ah well. i guess it IS unfair of me to share our movie thing with the rest of my barkada –;

let’s just hope it works out x.x

Super Emo Guy is here!

Ive decided to blog a little, just because I can, and because i believe my life is too angsty not to blog about. 

I’m not sure I’ll be updating so much, because you know, i gotta be in the mood.  But we’ll find out soon enough.  For now, though, allow me to welcome you to Super Emo Guy!  I’m a student in UP, and I’m really angsty. 

Enjoy!